To love or not to love 1
Why is my why of loving so complicated?
I'm currently in a relationship with a really sweet girl. Let's call her X. I'm happy with X, but most of the time it's hard saying what I want. Resulting in me naturally deforming for her plans and thoughts.
I don't really know how to makes me feel. I suppose it's good because she is happy. But I'm not really true to myself... because I'm scared being my true self will upset her. So I try to change myself to keep her happy.
But is this really how a relationship should work?
She constantly wants to see me, but I'm not really that "clingy" I suppose. I really enjoy my alone time, just enjoying my hobbies and, in a way, staying true to myself. And I'm frightened to tell her. Because I think she will get emotional.
She is really emotional...
She told me she she has a hard time accepting that I'm not able to spend almost everyday with her. For context, we still both live with our parents.
I find it hard and I don't know what I do. Even my parents tell me it's quite weird how this works, which makes me very unsure of myself and this relationship.
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