To do, or not to do 2
Am I spending enough time on myself?
I currently don't feel like I'm spending enough time on myself. I'm putting my hobbies aside and even my studies! Just so I can be do things with X, because she really wants to. While she herself, who also needs to study, doesn't want to study? So I need to manage my time to study every available second OUTSIDE of our activities.
It's quite tiring and I feel like I'm losing myself. Like I'm merging with X, but I don't want that. I'm still an individual that likes his personal activities and likes to be on his own.
I need to standup for myself. But I keep promising things. A relationship doesn't need someone that's fluid and fits the others needs. It needs two people with different needs and a drive to keep understanding each other. I guess you could call that love...
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